The overwhelming tranquility


She appeared calm but her eyes belied.


Scenario 1


She walked in for a follow up pregnancy scan. The previous two scans were inconclusive of whether a baby will be growing in her womb. The doctor had asked her to wait for one more week and hope for the best. She had some episode of bleeding last week but it did not seem significant.


I examined with a poker face.I have been training myself to be impassive. As I stared at the ultrasound monitor desperately looking for some hope, I could see from the periphery of my vision her eyes probing for an answer. I sneaked a moment casually to just look at her eyes. My wooden look belied. Her eyes welled yet she asked even though she knew the answer, ‘Doctor… ??”

Scenario 2


3 generations behind, she was no longer moving out of her house unless it really necessitated. She slowly walked towards the car. Took ample time to make herself comfortable. She anxiously held the head rest in front as the car drifted from one pot hole to another. The silence was numbing as the car drove into the driveway. Train of thoughts sped through her mind but there was only one gut feeling resonating. She wailed her heart out.


Motherhood – All love begins and ends there.


That awkward moment.. to that infectious joy..

Had a fairly quiet day today at work, though it was all a bit rushed  since I surprisingly woke up very late. Midday after my morning duty, I had headed over to the ultrasound room to cover for my buddy. While doing a few scans, randomly I was doing the scan for a young female in the late 20s for assessing the patency of a surgical shunt as she seemed to have some persistent pain at the site following the surgery 2 months ago. I follow this routine of normally coming to the region of interest (currrent  symptoms) towards the end so that I don’t miss out on some other finding while getting carried away by the presenting symptoms. So while I was scanning her pelvis, I realized her urinary bladder was empty. (Normally we need a full bladder to use as a window for seeing the uterus and ovaries).

Nevertheless I still swept over the lower abdomen to look for the pelvis when it took me by surprise to see one tiny fellow sitting inside her uterus, heart flickering away to glory. I was so not expecting a little fellow there that I reflexly asked her. ” Are you pregnant?” She retorted: ” AM I????? ” Her face was an admixture of emotions.. one of surprise, followed by a beaming smile and I involuntarily let my guard off and replied with a big smile “Yes”. It took me by surprise, her even more, but at the end of the scan, in addition to assuring she has nothing to worry about her shunt, I wished her all the best for the little one 🙂

Everyday we learn something and one thing that makes our profession so special is that everyday we get to share the happiness or dissipate the sorrow of one person or the other.

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